Sometimes, I wonder if how I feel is okay to feel. Everything in this world seems to have a boundary that everyone fears to pass. I'm not saying that I'd like to be reckless and/or carefree. I just wish that there wasn't a confusion as to where that boundary may be.
For example, being jealous. I feel jealous every now and then. But that jealousy has tagged along with paranoia. Gemini seems to flirt with a specific girl constantly on his Facebook wall. Now, that usually wouldn't be a huge deal if it weren't for my ex. He had flirted with some other girl on Facebook and then ended up leaving me for that particular girl. Now, every time I go to Gemini's page and see her there, I become awfully jealous and paranoid.
Does my paranoia and past experience justify my feeling this way? Or should I just let the past stay dead? There's my boundary, I suppose. I think by being jealous, I pass that line. Feeling this way just seems wrong. Gemini always tells me that it's not what I think, that I'm the one he wants, etc. But that's exactly what my ex had said to me. No more than a month later did I see him holding hands with another girl and giving me the Cold Shoulder.
And this whole boundary thing doesn't apply to just jealousy. It fits in with every other emotion. Well, maybe not happiness. I don't think there's a limit on that one. But on every other one, sure. I don't know. I just wanted to post something, since it's been a while. This was what was currently on my mind and it has been a reoccurring incident.
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