| For Gemini, because we love ginger kittens |
Lately I've been really terrible. When I say lately, I mean this week. I've been moody and aggravating consecutively. Another thing that I seem to do is hold double-standards. It's not always that I mean to. A lot of the time, I'm just being playful. But that isn't how it is always perceived.
"Gemini" and I just got off the phone about an hour ago. My moodiness caused me to get jealous about the attention other females give to him and vice-versa. It seems really stupid, but I am able to admit that I am the jealous type. You can go ahead and list all the problems with that, but trust me, I'm aware of them.
He then claimed that I do the same thing. Now, as true as that is, I do it to mess around with Gemini, and he knows that. It's the way I joke with him because I know he can take it. He's not as sensitive as I am when it comes to that. But when he does it to me, he isn't joking. I know that for certain. Then he'll say something like, "You do it all the time. If you can't handle it, then don't do it to others."
He's right. For the most part. I'd say that he should know my sensitivity level and not to mention how cute some other girl is. He knows how that makes me feel. I shouldn't do it to him, but when I do, I say I'm just kidding. I'm sincere about it too. But, he doesn't get offended or jealous in the first place.
I don't know. This whole thing is quite pointless but I just thought it was necessary to post. I'm sorry that I let my emotions ruin our nights, Gemini. It isn't my intention. And I can tell you that as I talked to you on the phone this evening, sounding all sad, I kept thinking to myself, Cheer up. Don't ruin this. Stop being emotional. I willed myself to start laughing and having a good time with you. But, I failed to overcome it. I really tried and put forth an effort.
I keep fearing that this'll push Gemini away. He's consistent, though. Always telling me that this won't make him leave. But I truly believe it could. I just have to screw up one too many nights. You can't fathom how hard I'm trying to control this. It's a work in progress. All I need is for Gemini to keep holding on. I promise I'll fix this.
"Gemini" and I just got off the phone about an hour ago. My moodiness caused me to get jealous about the attention other females give to him and vice-versa. It seems really stupid, but I am able to admit that I am the jealous type. You can go ahead and list all the problems with that, but trust me, I'm aware of them.
He then claimed that I do the same thing. Now, as true as that is, I do it to mess around with Gemini, and he knows that. It's the way I joke with him because I know he can take it. He's not as sensitive as I am when it comes to that. But when he does it to me, he isn't joking. I know that for certain. Then he'll say something like, "You do it all the time. If you can't handle it, then don't do it to others."
He's right. For the most part. I'd say that he should know my sensitivity level and not to mention how cute some other girl is. He knows how that makes me feel. I shouldn't do it to him, but when I do, I say I'm just kidding. I'm sincere about it too. But, he doesn't get offended or jealous in the first place.
I don't know. This whole thing is quite pointless but I just thought it was necessary to post. I'm sorry that I let my emotions ruin our nights, Gemini. It isn't my intention. And I can tell you that as I talked to you on the phone this evening, sounding all sad, I kept thinking to myself, Cheer up. Don't ruin this. Stop being emotional. I willed myself to start laughing and having a good time with you. But, I failed to overcome it. I really tried and put forth an effort.
I keep fearing that this'll push Gemini away. He's consistent, though. Always telling me that this won't make him leave. But I truly believe it could. I just have to screw up one too many nights. You can't fathom how hard I'm trying to control this. It's a work in progress. All I need is for Gemini to keep holding on. I promise I'll fix this.
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