Leaves

Yesterday, I was putting makeup on in my bathroom (for all the male readers, bear with me).With every stroke of that makeup brush to my face, I could see a transformation taking place. It was a change that made me feel less self-conscious about myself.

I asked myself, "What are you doing?"

The answer my mind generated was, "Satisfying others."

I realized that there's no need for me to be trying to cover up my flaws in order to feel comfortable around other people. In all honesty, that's all I ever think about when I'm with someone. I'm always hoping that I look okay; that they don't think badly about my appearance.

And for the longest time, I'd been wishing for it to stop. I've been waiting for it to stop--the constant worrying. My mistake was that I was waiting for the world to stop caring about appearances. But with how deep we are in media and commercialism, the importance of beauty will not fade anytime soon.

It was up to me to stop caring about how others saw me. In that moment in the bathroom, I told myself I wouldn't let people bother me anymore with the way I look. I don't want to sound all cheesy and cliche but, it doesn't matter what we look like on the outside. I believe that everyone deserves a fair shot without judging them by how they look.

I've been bullying myself with how I look. It had gotten so bad that compliments from other people didn't mean anything anymore. I was so far into thinking that my appearance was not good enough. But now I'm done with that.

I'm turning a new, confident, and satisfied leaf.